Date: Tuesday, March 06, 2007
@5:33 PM.
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theres a downpour now, exactly the way i feel - confused, alone, lonely.
i know i shouldn't like you.
i shouldn't.
and i wished i didn't.
but what could i do?
the feeling just came.
just like that.
all of a sudden.
i really didn't mean to hurt you today,
i wanted so much to tell you how sorry i was.
the words just couldn't come out.
i tried so hard.
just that every time i looked at you.
you were looking at me.
i wanted so much, to say im sorry.
but looking in your eyes.
you forced your eyes away.
away from me.
away from your troubles.
i felt so bad.
like i've never felt any worse in my life.
im sorry.
really. i mean it.
but you never knew.
all throughout the day.
after that incident,
you never spoke to me.
one word.
not even one.
i tried talking.
you pretend not to hear.
i felt like dying.
im not sure how this feeling came.
all of a sudden.
i couldn't concentrate on the lessons any more.
the whole day.
i was thinking..
thinking..
thinking..
of how to apologise to you.
i know you're upset.
i know that you don't care.
i know you want me to pay for all the things i've done.
all i can tell you, is..
i've tried.
i've tried so hard.
but you never knew.
you never even cared to understand.
wished i never hurt you.
wished all this never happened.
will you ever know how much..
just how much i feel for you?