Date: Saturday, March 03, 2007
@3:07 PM.
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today kindda slack..morning went to training at nan hua primary..the gals horr..haishh..i just find them very the wad larh..like nt serious one liddat..they sure cannot go top four derr la..confirm..hahas..im like so mean..any ways..almost all senior gals there except..claudia i think..but it was still okayy larh..then just go play match with this years senior gals..nt really funn..oh yarh..my service sucks larh..hahas..ai yarh..heck man..and im like so surprised..today morning woke up no muscle pain..hahas..
then after training all senior gals go mama first..oh yarh..plus Yu Tong larh..the odd one out..ok ok i will like stop being so mean..then after the go central eat..then go home..and like slack slack slack..actually not really larh..doing home work after sleeping again..freaking tired..and some more got so much home work..don't feel like doing..any one wanna help?? lol..
i guessed its a load of my mind letting you know what i feel, cause i really don't feel you there any more, both physically,and mentally, its not what i like actually wanted, but its some thing that i can't help also. cause i can't even remember all the stuffs that actually happened, or actually even the day that we broke. not that i don't want to, but if you really wanna remember it, you can do so without asking yourself to. not like what i am now. im not really what you've wanted, and you can say whatever you want about me, cause you don't have a place in my heart no more, and i don't actually care what you think about me. can't blame me for not liking you, where were you when i needed you? all the memories, the last few days of school in nan hua primary, when we keep going to the hall for the graduation ceremony, we were so near yet so far. i knew you never even liked me then. i was just..wadeva in your heart. do you know how i really felt? do you even care about my feelings? from that whole thing onwards, i never even liked you any more. its not my fault that you liked me again. if you wanna blame some one, blame yourself for hurting me from the start. how do you expect me to forgive you after all that you've done? cause its like impossible. i've tried so hard to forget you totally, but now you're asking me back. i agreed at first NOT because i liked you all again, because i just don't want you to feel the same way as i did before. i TRIED. not like i didn't. love cannot blossom just cause you want it to. but i didn't even wanted it to any ways, so i didn't care. like what other people say, you'll still find out one day, not like you won't. so might as will tell you now. i didn't know which one will be painer. be i didn't really care any ways. i never even tried. i wanted to ignore you totally and hope that you'll forget about me, but obviously, you won't. so i didn't wanna care. i realised that you've changed. alot. you weren't the guy i knew a few months back. the one tt i really feel for. but..wadeva, i don't care, and i don't wanna. all this won't have happened of you could just leave me alone. every thing would be perfect. walk your own path, i can walk mine without you helping me. i don't need any ones help. especially you. and hopefully, our paths will never cross. and i will never have to see you again. when ever i look at you, i remember all the past, all that actually happened. you seemed so heart less then, like i never knew you, not really surprising at all. i knew that right from the start. we weren't meant to be. cause you're like so different from me. and we will never be the same no matter how hard you try. i wouldn't even try. you wouldn't understand any ways. it hurts so much to be loved. i don't even feel like seeing you again. not even once. thats what all this had become. a load of crap. hate me if you want. cause i long longer care about what you feel. say im stupid, say im..wadeva you want. all those, all the memories, i've long forgotten them already. quit messing in my life. i know this is harsh, but you wanna forget me right? think this will help.